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If everybody have to say goodbye,

until then,

I want to fill your days with smiles.

ily.

I want to say I love you,

but the words just won't come out.

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I want to hold your hand,

but something is holding me back.

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I want to kiss you,

but my stomach ties in knotts.

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Everytime you are gone,

you are always on my mind.

I cry in the shower,

So no one can see,

The sadness I feel,

So deep within me.

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No matter the time,

No matter the hour,

I can safely cry,

By myself in the shower.

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No one suspects,

And no one can tell,

How I feel when I'm alone,

In my emotional hell.

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So my tears,

And the water embrace,

As the soap caresses,

My body and face.

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And if someone suspects,

That they saw me cry,

I will simply say,

I got soap in my eye.

I am practicing,

but facial expressions are proving to be difficult to make.

Where is everybody?

No one is near.

I am left all alone.

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I close my eyes to stop the tears.

Don’t understand why it turned out this way.

I just want us all to be here,

all together like the good old days.

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We used to laugh, talk, and share.

But now I see nothing lasts forever.

Now I see life is not fair.

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I sit here thinking about where, why, and how things went wrong.

Why am I all alone and why is everything gone?

If I were to leave this world tomorrow,

wouldn’t anybody notice, wouldn’t anybody care?

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Am I here for a purpose?

Or am I here to just take up space?

Life is so complicated, it really is.

The more alone I feel, the more the tears roll down my face.

Lazy to post nowadays
Studying hard
You all should too, study!

Why are you red?
I had a sad dream last night.
I sobbed, those red eyes.
Why do I wander?
I am searching for a lost love.
That's why I have sad dreams.

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Haven't recover from it.

Went to school as usual.

Normal lessons.

Bearing with the pain.